My reaction to the very last paragraph to me he sounded very arrogant, in the lines “I have to wait around like everyone else, I’m an average nobody”. He is referring to his luxury/gang life is now over and that seem to be a problem for him. He thinks being a regular person is boring and he can’t settle for that type of lifestyle. What an irony that all his life he used to look down on regular people and now he has to be one of them.